Never Thought..

I never thought I’ll face this pain..

I never guessed I would learn to share..
I never knew the me I know..
I never felt this way before..

I opened my eyes to see you smile..
I opened my ears to hear your words..
I opened my arms to hold you tight..
I opened my heart to let you in..

You’ve touched the weakness in my heart..
I’ve touched the warmth in your eyes...
You’ve teached me a lot sense we've met
And it's hard for me to say Goodbye..

I want you more than my soul..
I want you close to my heart..
I want you for as long as I live..
I want you till the day I die...

written 2006

War With Myself

At the end of the day

when i go to bed..

i start to reply the day

all over my head..

remembering all the stupid things i've said
remembering all the awful thins i've done..

i start to blame myself

and i start to hate myself..

it's like a war that will never end..

a war with me.. a war with myself..

i wish i could stop this..
i wish i could end it..

why do i push myself away?
why cant i just be ok?

i want to be free..
free of myself...

written 2006