War With Myself

At the end of the day

when i go to bed..

i start to reply the day

all over my head..

remembering all the stupid things i've said
remembering all the awful thins i've done..

i start to blame myself

and i start to hate myself..

it's like a war that will never end..

a war with me.. a war with myself..

i wish i could stop this..
i wish i could end it..

why do i push myself away?
why cant i just be ok?

i want to be free..
free of myself...

written 2006